i know we've been through all the thick & thin road of our lifes. but we havent complete the task yet, it still a long way to go. who said, in life there's no sickening obstacle & fucking problem? sure there is. we can't run from it, no way to escape either. sometimes things that we do, we don't realise that other party is unhappy. when they point out the things that they don't like, thats the time we realise. i know, how cruel i treat you last time, and now i realise that without you in my life, i feel so empty and lonely. last few days is sucha hatred day for us. having you & our princess around my arms is my happiest moment in life. you & her really complete my life. i just want the best from you. the very best what you can do, i'm not forcing you. i hope it come from the bottom of your heart. by forcing you to do something is not the right way. let the time decide the way. i'm sorry for what i did behind you, but you need to accept it. i shall quit it one day but i'm not sure when. whatever happened before our marriage life, let put it behind us. and don't ever look back to it. i know, you still feel uncomfortable with my side for whatever happened. but please i begging you, to look forward. i know, it takes time. hopefully one day, the feeling will fade away by itself. sometimes life is unfair, but i know, God is always fair & equal to everyone on earth. we plan it, He decide it. i really hope you get to read this. arham, you are the only man that i really love in my life. you are the only man that always stay in my heart. you are the only man that cherish & shower me with full of your love. you are the only man who give me a adorable & beautiful daughter. you are the only man that make me laugh & smile with your lame jokes. you are the only man that i called, my strength of pillar, my backbone & my hero. mohamad arham bin rashid, i really love you fucking alots. no man can replace you in my heart, i swear. may our marriage last forever dear, Amin. <3